My Wish

Goal: Do I even remember what a goal is these days?



I told my best friend I would blog tonight, and I try to keep my word. I also said I would do a picture blog, but I’m lazy and will work to do a picture blog tomorrow. I have been a little down on myself because I have no motivation to do some of the things I KNOW I should be working on: feature spots, voice work, etc. When I think about the expectations I had for myself versus my current reality, I lose focus and become discouraged.


AS I have stated in previous blogs, this is not the first time your girl has been down due to a physical situation. My entire life has been one uphill battle after another – and I am just tired of the uphill journeys. I know I am blessed in many ways and I KNOW there are others in worse shape than I, but I still want my break.


I wish for the day where I don’t have to wake up thinking about my disorder. I wish for a 20 year stretch in which I can be foot loose and fancy free. I want to be the person who doesn’t know the inner workings of hospital rooms, x-ray machines, blood test, ultrasounds (not because I’m pregnant), casting rooms, etc. I want to live in bliss because of my ignorance to all the above. I want to be free from physical pain.


I realize this blog sounds selfish, but this is my wish. I am tired of the battle and tired of having to be the “nice patient,” or the “good patient.” I want to be the girl with no care in the world. Does anyone have a Magic Genie????