The morning after another disappointment....

Goal: Face reality

Life is unfair...no promises and no guarantees. The only guarantee in life is change.

I woke up this morning and took a long look at my framed left leg. *Heavy Sigh*  After yesterday's disappointing news, I did not really know what or how to feel.  I trust that my doctor is taking his time to ensure that my leg, ankle, and bone heal beyond any doubt, for which I am thankful, but...

I calmed my spirit last night by taking my frustrations to the keyboard...music really does soothe the savage beast.  Although new to playing the keyboard, I was able to play the first verse of When the Saints Go Marching In.  (This goes back to my youth when I sang in the school and church choirs.)  I played the song several times using the organ sound on the keyboard.  Instantly, my spirit was put at ease.  The organ sound provided that richness for which the song implies and as I was singing along, my shoulders dropped, and I felt the tension and disappointment wane. 

I was able to retire to bed last night w/ prayer in my heart and feeling a little lighter.  I guess when I woke this morning, I was still in a state of wanting prayer for myself and my body.  I am not versed in the bible; I have never "studied" the book as I know a  good Christian should.  I know to go to the Bible and look in the index for verses related to a certain topic--at least I know that much!  I know that is sad, but that is where I am.

Usually, when I find myself in need of spiritual lifting, I reach for  a gospel song tucked in the corners of my mind.  Jesus, Your the Center of My Joy, is usually the first that comes out, followed by I Love You. After a few times, both  songs calm my spirit and remind me that I can move on.  Growing up, I always found my answer through the songs and that has stuck w/ me to this day.  Secular, Gospel, Traditional; music is music and I believe if you listen closely there can be a message found.  (Even now, I have the new Jaheim CD, Another Round, playing. This is a very smooth CD compared to his earlier CD's.  I should know, I have them all.  *hahahaha*  Seriously, it is nice.)  

Music, prayer, remembering that this situation will one day end, staying focused on my BFGFL's  arriving next week, knowing I have people I can call on, will help me move on.