Finding Balance

Goal: wash face, brush teeth, blog, order groceries



I seem to be making it through yet another 24-hour period. My day has not been filled with hope, and it has not been full of sadness – somehow, there is balance in that.


I’ve been trying like hell not to complain about my situation because I know complaining will not do a lick of good. In fact, complaining will drain me, causing me to crawl in the bed, pull the covers over my head, and not emerge for a few days. Hmmm. I don’t think complaining will work in my benefit this time.


Today, I decided to order a television series that was popular during my childhood: What’s Happening? I already have the first season and I have one more disc to watch. Since watching the series on DVD, I was reminded how much I enjoyed the characters Raj, Dwayne, Rerun, and Shirley. And who can forget the Dee; always making money off her brother Raj? The show revolved around high school days and hanging out with friends – how can you go wrong with that? Anyway, I ordered seasons two and three, sprang for overnight delivery, and am looking forward to watching the ole’ gang through-out the weekend. (Wait a minute! Did I just make plans??? What happened to my living in 24-hour segments? Could I be moving into a new phase – naw!)


Oh yeah, I also ordered some groceries. They, too, will be delivered tomorrow. Food is not such a high priority on my list, but I know it is essential to my healing process. During normal circumstances, I enjoy cooking. I like coming up with new recipes and perfecting old ones. I enjoy cooking for myself as well as for others. I have these periods in which I go through my “Suzie-home-maker-phase.” When Suzie comes to town, I cook all the time. It’s fun when Suzie is around because you never know what creations I’ll come up with.


But Suzie isn’t here these days – I’m in survival mode. I cook very simple items: rice, chicken, open ready-made salads, eat cereal, and make mochas. The most elaborate dish I cook these days is my spinach/crab dip. This takes some effort, but I truly enjoy it and I can eat off of it for two days. Fruit is also high my list these days; good for me and easy to handle.


Movies + Food = Balance. Today there was balance. *smile*