Goal: brush teeth, pay car insurance, contact M.A.O.
I met the goals of the day and talked with a few people I hadn't spoken to in a couple of weeks. It is amazing how much pain can alter your life: in an instant, you are brought to your knees, unable to do or focus on any positive aspect of what was once a "normal" life.
Today, I am thankful that the incredible pain of twelve days ago has decided to remove itself from my body. I am now on two Norcos a day (down from six) and can take a step w/out tears wanting to uncontrollably fall down my face. I am so ready for this roller coaster ride to come to an end.
I was also contacted by my former employer with an official job offer. Again, I am thankful that they want me back but my anxiety has not subsided.
So much has changed since I've been fixed to this frame: my cousin has died, babies have been born, babies have been conceived, various holidays have passed, my mom has moved, friends have broken up, friends have began new relationships, and I have witnessed most of this from the sidelines. I feel myself getting excited because the end of being fixed to this frame is finally near (I have a date, but will not share it yet) but I am so anxious about the next half of this year - what will I do?; what will I be able to do????
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