He knows me well...

Goal: didn't have one today

Dearest came by for a visit today.   In truth, he just left my mom's.  It is so funny because when I believe he has stopped caring or is no longer in tune to me, he shows the direct opposite. Today, for instance, he sent a text asking, "How are you feeling today?"  When I responded that I was doing "better," he followed with, "I'm coning to see you."  I laughed because he asked no permission and gave me no options/opportunity to back out of a visit.  I was like, "slick move." (I know I could have made up an excuse, avoiding seeing him again today, but, in truth, I wanted to see my dearest.)

Our visit lasted a few hours as he was on his hog and needed to get back before it  got dark (didn't have his night gear - safety first!) but it was nice.  It had been eleven days since we last saw another and he questioned me upon walking in the house: "What meds are you on?"; "Let me see them;" "Are you okay now?"  I wasn't expecting that from him, but of course I answered every question he had.

He is really a friend whom I value.  I value that we once again can talk like buddies as well as discuss some things dear to our hearts.  I have yet to find the words to tell him I am scared, but I am wanting to work on not pushing him away and being in the present.  I am also not sure how we will evolve, but I am glad he is still here and wants to be around.

Before he gave me my hug of the night, he said, "You have got to hurry up and get better."  (I know.)  We were discussing a few runs we want to do once better.  I know what this has done to me, but I don't know what watching my experience has done to him.  I sometimes wonder but I know I'll never know for sure.  Just trust dearest, I will and want to get better. Hugs!