Emotional Roller Coaster...

Yesterday was an exhausting day emotionally.  I was tense all morning as I awaited my doctor's decision about progressing with surgery to remove the frame from my left leg - I was a MESS!!!

 

I cried when the doctor said he would move forward with the surgery scheduled for Friday, May 21st.  I cried tears of joy at the fact that this phase of my life might be over in seven days - SEVEN DAYS!!!  I exhaled as I cried while sitting on the exam table.  For the first time in months, I felt RELIEF.

However, as always, my visit was not simple and straight forward.  I was cautioned that while under anesthesia, my leg will be examined, checking bone strength and stability.  If my bone is as strong as it appears on the x-ray, the frame will be removed and I will move into a splint until my pin sites close. If, however, my bone is  not, the frame will be revised and I will stay in it for a while longer.  I PRAY FOR TOTAL REMOVAL!!!!

Knowing God is in control of all things, I feel a little less anxious today.  I am always nervous about having surgery - I get emotional just thinking about it - but I feel/believe that this phase will be over in seven days.  I'm a very emotional person, in case I never stated this fact, so I know my mood will vary over the next several days.  However, I  will work to keep two facts in mind: "God meets your needs;" and "I am healed in Jesus' name." Amen...AMen...AMEN!!!