It's OFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seven days ago, my external frame was removed.  After five months and three days, my frame was removed - so why don't I feel happy?????

I have struggled emotionally this past week, hence a week without blogging.  Although I AM excited to have that heavy piece of plastic and metal off and out of my leg, I am fearful about my future self.  Can this happen to me again?

I know I am sounding like a broken record, as I've questioned my future before, but I am unable to shake this feeling.  

My doctor was very positive and reassuring regarding my healing process.  He is happy that I am willing to move at a conservative pace as I am wearing a walking cast for two weeks.  (My doctor was going to put me in something less supportive, enabling me to easily shower.)  I figure, after five months of hell, why would I rush the process now.  Really?  Now?  I don't think so.

I have to work my feelings out regarding everything I am going through.  I know this is not the end, but the beginning of the next phase of  my life.  I simply ask that God continue to guide me and direct me through this journey.